I had a small “heart attack” the other day, where my heart just beat very fast and heavy for no reason while I’m still working in my office. It’s not the first time this was happening, but I can’t recall whether it’s something often or not. Anyway, it felt that it was the worst this time around, and it lasted for quite some time.
This has sparkled me to think deep: something needs to change, and I really need to do it quickly. I’ll probably arrange for check up on it soon, and at the same time, a change in lifestyle and diet probably. Well, it’s not like my lifestyle is unhealthy, but I do acknowledge that I’m lack of exercising for the past few months. Habit change is needed, and it needs to be planted into myself and being cultivated as a routine.
Another thought I had in the middle of the night after this incident was, if I really just died like that, will I have any regret left behind?
Well, of course there are still a lot of things that I would like to do and still yet to be completed, like my study, some future travel plans and so on. But thinking through, I think I can safely say that even if I do passed away now, I think I’m pretty happy about my life as of now. Yes, I’m not afraid of death. I don’t think there’s anything you need to worry about and just live your life to the fullest with no regret. You can’t control death anyway, so as some wise man said: live everyday as if it’s your last day in life.
Anyway, thank you for those who were concerned about my condition. I’ll take good care of myself, not to worry. Till then.