PERSONAL PROJECT: A BOOK ABOUT MYSELF

After much delay, I had finally completed another personal project of mine. This time around, this project is more on the words than the pictures. Initially I thought that I would like to reshoot all the pictures to make them relevant to the words written, but sadly I have to scrap the idea in the end as I simply do not have much time to do so.

Anyway, for those who is interested, you may find my new personal book here. This is a book with collection of passages, stories and thoughts of mine throughout the years. You may get to know me in person a little more by reading them (I guess…). Sorry that it was written in Chinese instead of English. Similar to my previous Japan Travel Photobook, I felt more comfortable in expressing myself in Chinese words than English.

That’s all for now. Hopefully I’ll have time to complete some other projects this year, though I do not really have any plan yet at the moment. Till then, thank you.

There goes January

What?

Yes, hello February. That was fast. January has been taxing for both my work and my study. Going through the Finance module was a pain for me as I have zero knowledge and zero interest on it. Even after reading through the materials, listening to the class lecture… I’m still pretty lost. Sigh. Workload has been heavy as usual at the start of the year, which should gradually become better when getting closer to March.

January has been rather uneventful overall, mainly were just work and studies. Didn’t really get to shoot actually, but I managed to process the rolls of film that I shot during my last trip in Bentong, Pahang, Malaysia. Every time when I scan and edit the film strips, I’ll keep asking myself: “Why the hell am I doing this…”, especially for the shots from Xpan, where I’ll need to crop each pictures manually and scan them accordingly, which is very troublesome. But this feeling was wiped off once I saw the result from the scan. It still amaze me whenever I saw the scan from an Xpan. I’ll share more about the trip in coming post.

Let’s hope February will be a good one. Till then.

State of my mind…

Been trying to observe myself lately. First the “heart attack” incident, then I got a knee problem at the end of January, and really no idea what happened for both cases. With the help of my Apple Watch I tried to measure and collect as much data from it to try to figure out what’s wrong.

I think I can safely say that my health is certainly affected by my work at the moment. There’re too much going on, the problems, the troubles, the people… and being myself, I just couldn’t ignore most of it and kept thinking about them. That’s where everything crumbles. Heart rate rises, breathing becomes harder, headache strikes whenever I think about work, whenever I am working in the office, whenever I’m talking to the people in my office.

Stress? Pressure? Depression?

I don’t know, though I don’t think my problems are related to any of these, but I could be wrong. I wonder how much longer I can last like this. I’m in a state where if taking drug can relief my mind, I’m more than happy to go ahead and do it. At least I can stop thinking about all the problems and just be myself and think about myself for a moment.

Sigh… what a way to kickstart the year…

On social media and about my blog

I never really like to spend time on social media such as Facebook, Instagram or etc, but I was sort of being “forced” to do so because my friends are all on Facebook, so the best way to keep up to date on their recent life will be browsing their feed from time to time.

I know that nowadays a lot of people cannot imagine living a day without social media. Perhaps they need attention, perhaps they need friends. For whatever reason, they just can’t stop refreshing their social media feed, posting every few minutes, sharing “stories” and so on.

No offence, and by all honesty, I don’t really bother about what one is doing throughout the day. My point has always been “why bother about the daily life of others while you can put more effort in living your day better instead”? Stop admiring others, work for it so that your life is as exciting as it can be!

About my blog, as mentioned before it is more like a journal for myself rather than a site to gather crowds and followers. I don’t use it as a social media platform. I don’t fancy all the “likes” and “shares”. I am grateful that there’s a steady stream of readers here who find some of my posts useful to them.

A big thank you for those who supported all along, and apologies as I wasn’t being that engaging with you all. I know the potential of social media and blog, but for me, my priority is to live my life, my “real” life. I rather spend more time seeing the world and experiencing new things than staying in front of computer or my phone and keep staring at the LCD screen.

That being said, I will continue to journal my life, my thoughts and my rants here. As for the social part, I’ll still keep it to the minimum. Call me old school, I still prefer real life interaction. Till then.

Me. Now and then.

Disclaimer: This is a non-photography related post.

Keep moving. Do not stay still.
Keep adapting. Do not stop learning.
Keep changing. Do not stop improving.

These are perhaps things that I hold true to myself, you can call it “my motto of life”, “my principle”, or whatever you wish. To me, I try not to stop myself from continuously exploring possibilities, searching for ways to improve my life and doing things differently from others. Hence, people around me may find that I will change once in a little while, or I’m just an odd-ball or asshole to some.

The obvious example on continuous learning will be me taking master studies this year, which is something I find necessary for me to keep developing myself. I’m lacking in terms of knowledge on business, marketing and etc., so I hope through this master program I can gain something out of it and equip me with better skillset for my future. Besides that, I had resumed my reading habits, which was stopped for quite some times, so that I can continuously absorb new thinking, new idea and new philosophy into my life. I’m trying my best to keep it up as a daily habit and I do hope I’ll be able to sustain it. Also, I restarted my running routine and slowly trying to get my fitness back to an acceptable level. This is both for health reason and also to get myself fit for the next trip or hike that’s around the corner.

Another improvement or change exercise that I like to do once in awhile is to try to simplify things in my life as much as possible, decluttering things and reforming things when necessary. It may sounds a bit ridiculous, but I did, for example, slimming down my wardrobe and only wear Uniqlo Ultra Stretch Skinny Tapered Jeans (I have a few of those in different colours) for my casual long pants. Why am I limiting myself up to this level? Well, I don’t view this as a limitation. I’m just simplifying my life so that I will spend less time in shopping stores over stores for the perfect pair of pants that fit well and look nice on me. Since I really enjoy wearing that jeans from Uniqlo, why not just stick with it? I’m even considering to move all my casual wardrobe choices to Uniqlo so that I’ll just need to visit one store to get all my wardrobe needs. Too much too crazy? Well, not really. Facebook founder, Mark Zuckerberg is quite famous for his grey t-shirt, which he believed by wearing the same t-shirts everyday, he will have one less decision to make and hence become more productive. Of course I will not be that extreme, but there are some values which we can pick up from this reasoning.

To me, it’s always a gain rather than a loss when you cut down all the hassles in life. You’ll get to focus more and get straight to the point. This is what all companies do, cutting down redundant processes in order to achieve cost saving and better time management. Another items that I had streamlined will be my bags. I used to own one travel backpack, one small sling bag for casual use, one messenger bag for camera stuff and one laptop backpack for work. Now I have a “travel & camera 2 in 1” backpack which can be used for both purposes depending on how I configure the bag with the inserts provided. Next up is to streamline the casual and work bag, and I’m currently looking into it and see if there’s a possibilities to have another “2 in 1” solutions here. Less bag, less hassle, less trouble to swap my things around.

There are many other areas in my life where I can improve, be it “materialistic” items such as my bags, clothing, cameras, gadget that I used and etc., or “mentalistic” items such as my knowledge, behaviour, skills and so on. I’m a big fan of “zen” and minimalist, hence all these will work well on me, but it may not be the same for you. I’m just sharing my thoughts and what I’ve done so far, and I hope that my sharing here can bring some help to you.