I was never good in expressing my feeling, indeed. That’s part of the reason why I started blogging, as I found myself being able to express better through writings than physically in real life. That’s probably something I need to work on to improve.
I have just finished my short vacation to Hong Kong. The main purpose of this trip is to bring my grandmother and mother to visit my eldest sister and her new born baby. Having a new member in the family is always very special. It’s a new chapter of life for a married couple to become parents. Some say they became like baby again as they learn to take care of one.
It’s definitely not an easy decision and task to handle. Nowadays, it’s getting more and more financially demanding to have a baby. Not to mentioned the time, energy and effort required from pregnancy until delivery. I have saw many parents who are irresponsible, and I have saw many children who was born to this world but was not receiving the love that they should.
Watching my sister, my grandmother and my mother taking care of the baby, it made me feel touched seriously, I had probably received similar blessing and love when I was a baby. It’s really… magical, heart warming and… lovely. It’s hard to put it in words, really.
So am I ready to be a parent? Will I be having my own baby? Seriously, I do not have the answer now. I was born from a single parent family, perhaps a lot of bad memories in my childhood had prevented me to take the leap and move on. Anyway, only time can tell what will happen in the future, so we’ll just wait and see.
When we leave Hong Kong, tears can’t help but falling from the eyes of my grandmother and sister. It’s going to be awhile before we will meet again. My grandmother keep mentioning about all the things that yet to be settled by my sister before her maternity leave ends. She felt worry for sure, and I can certainly understand. But deep in our hearts, we all know that there are going to be more and more obstacles and challenges ahead, but things will probably ironed out when the time comes.
There’s nothing much I can help in baby sitting, nor I was able to convey my feeling and blessing properly to them. For the very least, I tried to took some pictures during our stay and hopefully this will become the memory for us to cherish in the days to come.