Grass is greener on the other side

“I feel happy for you for being able to be with someone you love, get married, and live happily ever after.” Said by someone who is single.
“You know what? I envied you for being single and live the life freely as you want!” Replied by someone who is married.

More often than not, we will come across conversation like this, or similar to this. As the old saying goes, “Grass is greener on the other side”, we will always admire what others have and forgot to appreciate what we owned. Same goes to life, same goes to everything else. Friends, family, job, wealth, health, job, gadgets… you name it.

I wonder why? Is it because we always compare ourselves with others in order to benchmark and see if we are living our life well? Is it because we feel insecure, we feel lost, hence we need to see what others do in order to guide ourselves through? Is it because we are not happy with what we have at the moment, hence we want to search for an answer from people around us? Or is it we simply don’t know how to appreciate what we have?

I’m not a saint. I do always ponder about why others are “better” than me in this and that, I do always admire how others live their life, I am guilty as well on this regards. But… what’s next? I think the attitude towards how you are going to react to this is more important. Are you going to just sit there and “admire” forever? Are you going to just complaint about why your life is not as good? Or are you going to do something about it?

It’s something that I’m trying to learn as well at the moment, and hopefully master it in the future. Perhaps first off I need to learn to appreciate more on what I have, this is certainly something that I’m lacking on. Next, if what I have is really not enough, then I’ll need to take some action to make things better. I’m not too worry on this, as I have always been quite adaptive and work hard for things I wanted.

Learn to appreciate, do more and complaint less… perhaps this may not be the answer to all, but this is probably what I’m going to practice and learn for the days to come. Grass may not always be greener on the other side.

Wherever I will be…


“I know what I don’t want, but I don’t know what I want.”

This is a typical answer I have as I’m trying to explore and decide on what’s next for me in my career. I have been working in the same industry but different role for the past 8 years, I was hoping to change both role and industry but I know it will be difficult. Perhaps I should look into changing industry first, and that brings me to the question of “which industry?”

I really have no idea and I’m lacking of understanding on some other different industries out there. I have been trying to learn more about them through the course of my study, but there are still a fair bit of unknown to me.

Perhaps the easier way is to get rid of those that I don’t want, I know I don’t want to go into consulting, I know I don’t want to involve in finance related industries… perhaps slowly from there I can have a list of potential industries that I can consider to move into. In terms of job function, the same applies.

What’s next? I wonder. Let’s see what the future offers. This is a troubling phase, but once I get over it, hopefully things will eventually get better. Till then.

Thank you 2018

I believe every year I will feel the same: “perhaps it’s because when we got older, we felt that time passes by much faster”. The year of 2018 was no exception, even so when most of my time were occupied by studies. Just when I manage to catch a break from study, the year has already ended. Well, looking at it from the brighter side, it does serve as a reminder to me that time waits for nobody, stop wasting it and start getting things done!

The year of 2018 had been pretty kind to me, apart from a few little dramas here and there that stirred things up a little. Nothing has changed in my work, except my disappointment and dissatisfaction level has gone up. Nothing has changed in my life as well, still married and still no plan to have kids.

For photography, I had sold almost all my gears and left with only Fujifilm X100F. Still haven’t decide what’s next, let’s wait and see. Glad that I had travelled a few places this year and still get to do some photography in Vietnam, Japan and Taiwan. Also continued to write something along the way and managed to crunch out a book for Vietnam, and the one for Taiwan is coming soon.

What else… oh, other than textbooks, I managed to finish 24 books in total in a year. Was only targeting 12 earlier this year but ended up doubling that, surprised! There were some very nice reads that I would highly recommend, and there were a few below average ones. All in all, a great year for readings, and hopefully next year will be another productive one.

Overhauled my wardrobe and now I have 90% of my clothings from Uniqlo, got into using fountain pen, finally got my wisdom tooth extracted, bought Apple Watch earlier this year, been working out in gym for the whole year but still not fit at all, bought new mattress, bought new chair, bought new headphone, cutting my time on social media, shifted away from Google services… well, nothing major, really.

There were of course some ups and downs, in my work, in my life, in my studies, in my relationships. Glad that I had weathered through them for the year, and hopefully next year will be better. Thank you 2018, and goodbye.

It’s time to change

I realized that I had not put some of the good things I learned along the way into good use. To be very honest, I’m not a fast learner myself, hence a lot of time I will need to study, practice, learn and reflect (and even restudy) before I can actually put something into application.

Taking my MBA course for example, there are knowledge, tools, frameworks and skills that I learned and yet I had not managed to either practice them at my work, link them together to form a more holistic picture, or dive deeper to understand them further.

However, there are those from my class who managed to make sense of the concepts learned and apply them quickly across other fields and subjects, and sometimes I truly admire their strength in this regard. Anyway, it’s okay if I was a little slower, I just need to make sure that I’ll be reaching there eventually.

The same goes to photography. It’s easy to learn pieces of skills and techniques here and there, but the important thing has always been joining the dots together and get the shot when the time comes. Learn, understand, relate, practice… and hopefully perfection will follow. There’s no shortcut to get there.

By the way, I had decided to take an extra elective despite the core modules has finished by early December. The elective will drag my completion date into the end of January 2019, hence another month of extra classes. It’s okay, I had survived 18 months after all, one extra month is bearable. Hopefully I can learn a little more and start to digest all the knowledge for future use. Till then.

One thing I learned from MBA

Reflecting what I had actually learned throughout my MBA courses… there’s one thing that strikes me quite hard, and that is… I may not be able to fit in the corporate world.

Everyday, you will see people “acting” as someone else, either pleasing their bosses to the max while neglecting their peers or direct reports, only work for self interest and not the company’s best interest, or finding ways to make themselves look better than the rest.

Sorry but I can’t do any of those, and I can’t force myself to work with people of such. At some point along the way I will get pissed and confront them. Some say I’m not mature, some say I should just follow the flow, some say I should be part of them. But I just can’t, I simply can’t go against my basic human principle.

Bureaucracy, ass kissing, politics. Hated them to the max, and yet that’s how most people got to climb to the top, and that culture will then spread and instil in the company just like cancer. But as people choose to embrace it, the whole company will become rotten and those who don’t play by their rules will eventually leave.

There are two ways for me to distill this situation. Either I remain as a nobody, don’t rise to the top in my career, just do my job and do it very well and don’t get me involve in any of those shits as I’m not interested in it; or I make it to the top and start to make a change? It will probably be hard as I never play by their rules.

Perhaps leaving the corporate world is the best solution for me? I wonder…